Ah love is in my heart

My life, that has always been lonely since I was a child,
Is like a lonely bench on a street
After I entered elementary school,  I go home after school ends and open the door,
And darkness and silence greets me
When I was young, I was locked in fear
I barely comforted my fear with the loud radio
I just look out the window and wait for my parents who went to work
A year, two years pass like that and nothing has changed
On rainy days, I had to run in between the other mothers who came to pick up their kids
Using my indoor shoe bag to cover my head
Even when I fought with friends or was upset over something
I had to endure everything by myself
But I didn’t even try to complain and hope for something
At some point, I became used to being alone

Because I was always lacking, because I was always lonely
Because I was always longing, I shed so many tears
But that’s it – I don’t want to beg for someone’s love or attention like a beggar
I took the short, wind-like happy moments and got rid of bits and pieces of my lonliness
When I was lonely, sometimes I looked at the sky
I couldn’t touch it but it’s always by my side
Probably, my family, my friends, all the people I love, would have had the same heart as the sky
The ocean and the sky are far apart but
The horizen always makes it so that they are together

* When you feel like you’re alone
Look toward the sky and empty your heart
And hold hands with the stars

Sometimes, people who we trust and love that is more precious than ourselves –
They leave and we can’t climb over the hedge of lonliness and we chose tears
But life is like bottomless poison anyway
When the lonely winter passes, spring always finds us again
Give everything to the fishermen without lingering attachment, like the flowing river
Like the bench that freely has greetings and goodbyes
That is how I will live – I will make lonliness into a constellation and make it into a path of meeting
This thick wall of lonliness that I’m so sick of,
Now it is a friend that I can lean on

* repeat