I’m used to it, I can’t hide my heart in front of you
Because I’m an expert at being just friends

If it’s you, even when you talk about her
I can pretend I’m okay, I can take it

I have to be the most comfortable person to you
Because that’s how I can stay by your side

Today, I’m laughing, I’m laughing like crazy
So you won’t know my heart, I rip up my sadness

You’re laughing too, always in front of me
If I can be a comfort to you, I’ll be happy

I’m used to your stories about her, I can hide my face
The small jealousy, the scars in my heart, I can’t let it show

Because it’s you, even if it’s not her
I can pretend I’m okay, I can silently swallow it

I know you better than anyone else
But I need to hold it in
Because that’s how I can stay by your side

Today, I’m laughing, I’m trying to laugh again
With useless expectations, I put it all in

You’re laughing too, not even knowing my tears
If I can be by your side, I don’t care what kind of existence I am

I don’t think this is right, I can’t keep pretending
I can’t be the man you want, I’ll be honest, how about you be my second?
I know you thought about this a lot but don’t misunderstand
This isn’t a heart pounding love, it’s just a mismatched walk
You be the first to throw away garbage like me

Today, I’m laughing, I’m laughing like crazy
So you won’t know my heart, I rip up my sadness

You’re laughing too, always in front of me
If I can be a comfort to you, I’ll be happy

Today, I’m laughing, I’m trying to laugh again
With useless expectations, I put it all in

You’re laughing too, not even knowing my tears
If I can be by your side, I don’t care what kind of existence I am

Today, I’m laughing, I’m laughing like crazy
So you won’t know my heart, I rip up my sadness

Today, I’m laughing, always, in front of you
If you laugh then I’ll be happy