Jonghyun – Grease (기름때)


Black grease
It won’t come off, it’s like you
It’s on your white shirt
All over
It even feels dirty (dirty)
Yea it’s like you
Disgustingly spread out
Meeting eyes with you was my fault
It’s my fault that I didn’t know about myself

i want to clean it up (clean it up)
I want to fix it up (fix it up)
Let’s say this never happened
Let’s say this never happened

Throwing away my memories
Throwing away everything you gave me
Because it’s already been long since it lost meaning
Now go away, cuz I wanna erase you, go away

Throwing away my memories
Throwing away everything you gave me
Because it’s already been long since it lost meaning
Now go away, cuz I wanna erase you, go away

I did nothing wrong
If I had to choose, it’s that I got to know you
I was crazy, I tried to make things right
But what’s so good about you?
What do I have to lose?
After I met you, I only regret
If I had the chance to erase it all
I wish I could beg the kids who know you
So I don’t have to know you anymore
Crazy, crazy, I was crazy
I want to turn it all back

i want to clean it up (clean it up)
I want to fix it up (fix it up)
Let’s say this never happened
Let’s say this never happened

Throwing away my memories
Throwing away everything you gave me
Because it’s already been long since it lost meaning
Now go away, cuz I wanna erase you, go away

Throwing away my memories
Throwing away everything you gave me
Because it’s already been long since it lost meaning
Now go away, cuz I wanna erase you, go away

I know I know I know
I know I know I know
I don’t need the memories you gave me
It’s been a while since even the attachment went away
Gotta be alone better be alone

Throwing away my memories
Throwing away everything you gave me
Because it’s already been long since it lost meaning
Now go away, cuz I wanna erase you, go away

Throwing away my memories
Throwing away everything you gave me
Because it’s already been long since it lost meaning
Now go away, cuz I wanna erase you, go away

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2 thoughts on “Jonghyun – Grease (기름때)”

  1. Okay. I have read all the final album lyrics. There is a constant, cohesive theme – depression and relationship. This album does not show singing abilities in different genres because his style is keeping with what he likes and showed on his previous solo albums. I can’t help but think that this whole album is about love gone wrong. Forget the drama with work. Men don’t necessarily spin out of control with work issues. Forget the issue with the father. Men harden up and vow to be a better man. Jonghyun’s ending had a lot to do with a woman! The last girl did him wrong and that hurt big time. There is a woman that knows this album is about their relationship. I bet she told him that she was getting married and blindsided him That will throw a man out of alignment. The work issue was only part of the pressure.

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    1. My God, someone is able to think beyond the smoke-screen, tinsel, deceptions and “what if.” Granted, it is “another” concept of what went wrong, but one with a ring-of-truth. I often think there was more to the depression than anything superficial, as he felt it was enough to seek death as a remedy.

      The heart-break over foregone opportunities, abandoned talent, lost songs, missed performances, and so forth, are all fantasies of the living.

      The experts will say depression is pain-driven, on which I will agree, as my depression is that, but to what extent Jonghyun had it, but never told me—he was a consummate actor. I wish he had asked my help, or anyone’s help, on that fateful day, but that is not what happened, and was just enough too late. (It appears, that his resolve, was already forged as he notified his sister of that resolve—just hours before his body was discovered.)

      Affairs of the heart, always carry more gravity than work pressures, but any expectations, can become deadly in the midst of depression. How many times has love-gone-wrong, left one face-first, in a lake of tears? Whether male of female, love-gone-wrong, can take down the strongest and bravest. The more unexpected, the more it can hurt: too often, it is more private, than public.

      Private despair, can fuel a depression, that one is reluctant to share. The lack of sharing,, can make the depression, even worst, as it is a kind of pressure cooker of the soul.

      Of course, celebrity and cultural pressures, can make a public declaration of private pain and depression, embarrassing, at best, socially, and career damaging, in other ways—despite sympathies. Men have to be strong.

      You have my vote, that something relations-wise, is a better candidate for Jonghyun’s suicidal demise. Why his support net failed him, is the best conjecture, but it goes a long way to explain one “why.” Some years back on his “solo vacation” in Japan, he said that to be away from the other four members, meant five times, the freedom, and five times, the loneliness.

      I will agree with you…

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