So my heart won’t be noticed

I’m always pretending I’m fine
As I listened to you talk about your person

When we walked together in front of the school
You saw him and ran to him

I always said I just want you to smile
And I was scared that my feelings would make you uncomfortable

Being friends is good enough for me
If only you could smile

You’re talking about him and crying
And I’m comforting you
I want to hug you and comfort you but
I’m just looking at you and walking

I’m always ten steps behind you
I can’t take a single step closer
I’m only looking at you from behind
Smiling like that alone
Remaining here in this spot

Always behind you

You say you’re so happy that I’m your friend
As you look at me and smile so brightly
Being friends is good enough for me
Because I can see you smiling

You’re talking about him and crying
And I’m comforting you
I want to hug you and comfort you but
I’m just looking at you and walking

I’m always ten steps behind you
I can’t take a single step closer
I’m only looking at you from behind
Smiling like that alone
Remaining here in this spot

Although I hate myself
For not being able to do anything
When you’re hurting right next to me

So my heart won’t be noticed

You’re talking about him and crying
And I’m comforting you
I want to hug you and comfort you but
I’m just looking at you and walking

I’m always ten steps behind you
I can’t take a single step closer
I’m only looking at you from behind
Smiling like that alone
Remaining here in this spot

This is me at 25